New, shy client

I'm a shy guy who wants to feel desirable. I love massages, feeling small, and being held down. I mesh well with natural caretakers, assertiveness, tattoos, and masculine men with broad shoulders. Being bisexual, I haven't been with a man in a long time. I was (born female) so even though I have been living as a man for 8 years, I have body issues that make it hard for me to find relationships naturally. No fetishists. I am a man with a birth defect trying to live as normally as possible.